my beloved opens a new door to me day in day out
a new dilemma between me and myself
when i do not see him
i assume he is too much of himself
when he doesn’t see me, he assumes i disappeared
i am scared and turn back without opening the doors
i anticipate a new experiment, this time a new one
i wish the god particle be caught. fusion.
utopia. it is a place where distances and fears are beaten,
utopia. it is joyful sleeps waking up in the houses without doors,
utopia. it is home to all children born to the same happiness,
utopia. it is dark skinned bodies getting cooled in glittering waters,
utopia. it is a place where we would be called with the same name,
utopia. it is the day i wake up in your eyes,
utopia. it is the marriage of heaven and the hell,
utopia. it is a box where Schrödinger lives with his cat
i wrote cem a letter. and i talked about you. about the cat
and the door. About the big fusion. i also attached a box
just in case. you might come into the world as a cat, and me as schrödinger.
English Translation by Mesut Şenol